Note to myself: reflecting what i felt? Poetry

 I wrote a note to myself, 

I needed to reflect for what I felt,
So forgiveness was which came first,
For all wrongs I did because of my thirst.
Because of the wrongs of my thirsty soul,
I collected my tears in a golden bowl.
I was so thirsty in a dry world,
To see the sickness they have ignited in my soul.
Tried so hard to be a small light,
To light up the path which was so dark.
But during this path the lessons were hard,
So here I confess surely, confidently to my heart.
Forgive me myself for all the pain,
To let you be vulnerable in this reality full of chains.
Forgive my my soul for all I wanted to be,
By setting you free in this fake reality.
Forgive me my heart for all I let you feel,
More humble than before begging you in my knees.
I let you all so free,
And break you almost completely,
But never will regret, never will deny,
Those all helped me to stand,
To understand who Am Eye.